Today’s is the day my Mom could have her every desire that I was able to give. It was the day I spent entirely with her. Even if I had to work, I’d forfeit sleep to spend the day with her. (And she milked it!)
She’d open her gift(s), I’d do my presentation about her plant or flower I bought her for this year, she’d tell me how I was so extra, we’d go for a walk and definitely spend money on some frivolous items.
But it was Mother’s Day. A day to celebrate the woman who knew me best. A day to celebrate the woman who brought me into this world. A day to shower her with all the love she deserved.
This year I lay in bed. I toy with the idea of going to the cemetery. This is all still too new for me. I still can’t believe I don’t have you with me on Earth to call and spend time with. I realize my time was spent working, caring for my kids and caring for you. I dedicated my life to making sure you were taken care of. Sometimes you didn’t want to be taken care of but the older you got the more you accepted it. After all I’m just like you, stubborn and don’t listen. I spoiled you as much as I possibly could.
I remember when I bought her a tablet and she heaved it into the tree line of the yard because she didn’t know how to work it? Lol. I was so upset like why not give it back to me. Or wait for me to help you. Lol. I was her personal tech support. I fixed her internet, tv, tablet, cell phone, house phone, modem, router, etc. I placed all her As Seen On TV orders in dismay lol. We argued about it but I still did it happily.
Dear Best Friend (Mommie),
I miss you more than all the words that exist, all the sounds we can hear, all the things we can smell, all the things we can see, all the things we can taste and all the things we can touch. And that’s a lot Mom.
Today I hope you understand why I spent 10 years giving you flowers that you had no intention of keeping for real lol. I’m happy you accepted them with no pushback. I’m grateful you accepted my speech and explanation of the chosen flower/plant each year. I’m at peace knowing I did all I could to take care of you and showed you how much I loved you while you were here. There is so much more I wanted to do with you and for you. And I will still push to do them now, even when I’m emotional. And when I do it, I will be sure to call upon you. So that you can be with me in spirit…
Happy Heavenly Mother’s Day to the best Mom that graced the Earth and now roams the Heavens. There will never be another you. I love you for all eternity Mom ❤️
With Love, Your Favorite Daughter 😘