Worth the Effort

I woke up feeling good today. Ready to tackle the grocery store instead of shopping online. And browsing for flooring and new living room furniture.

Moving on is hard. Life around you is business as usual and you’re stuck in time. On a day where your life changed forever.

The cat calls, the compliments and advances from men…they are unwarranted. Unsolicited. I say thank you, no thank you and inside I have this consistent ache in my chest that reminds me that I’ll never be worth the effort to any man in this lifetime.

I’ve made peace with just that this week. It’ll take a lifetime for me to heal from all that I’ve endure and buried. And while I was looking for someone to love me through my healing, I’ll provide myself with that love that I want so bad.

Chapter 39 officially closed. ❤️‍🩹