Today was quite blah…
A stupid and long pointless meeting at the beginning of the day really ruins your whole day. It was as if one particular person wanted to hear themselves talk and wanted to make all the decisions, with a little ‘amen imp’ in the corner. Tell me again why do you need a committee aaaannnd a meeting? 🧐 Definitely not how I wanted my “Thursday” to begin…
These two vacation days are so close, I can feel them. 😌
I attempted to recover my day by closing my door, taking a moment to look up my positive affirmation for the day….
“I am deserving of respect- I practice kindness, I cultivate love towards others and I have a right to expect that same energy to be emitted back to me. Being treated like a human is not too much to ask for- therefore, I will make my petition known unapologetically.“
Head held high I opened my door and restarted my day. I cannot allow the ill effects and ignorance of some people to allow me to second guess how AWESOME I am. Let’s start by making a bowl of grits because I’m hangry as fuck.
The day goes on, I stay unbothered by the bullshit but I continue to be reminded I need to make a career change. As a young, educated, beautiful black woman I’m challenged on a daily basis. I know this will occur no matter where I’m employed but this is by far the worse I’ve encountered.
In my position of upper level management, I’m micro managed. I am in charge of a department that I cannot effectively lead on my own. Not because I can’t, but because I’m not allowed to. I’ve gained the respect of my colleagues within and outside my organization. I surpassed my personal 5 year goals in a mere 2 years but professionally. I’m unhappy.
Truthfully, I find more happiness in my side hobby turned business with one of my best friends. Hosting sip and paint parties has been rewarding and fun. More than what I imagined and there is so much more for us to do. It wasn’t until we started this that I was reminded of my self worth. I never feel like it’s work when I’m working for me…
My next goal should include me being my own boss…so I’m not having days like today when I should be excited about vacationing with my minions.