Author: ~California Dreamer~

Just an average silly, nerdy chick. That's weird in probably a million different ways, sharing my sometimes fucked up life with you. Showing others that they should enjoy life, because there's always someone in a worse situation.

Moon Shit: Elf on the Shelf Edition

In light of last nights Full Moon, I opted to do a little moon staging with Jaxon today. My kids and I love learning about the moon, stars and space. So they will be pleased to see Jaxon mounted on the fridge with a crescent moon. They both live in the refrigerator so let’s see who notices him first. I really hated using my aluminum foil on his but oh well!

–Happy Full Moon in Gemini-

This is the final full moon of the year. And boy has it been a year! But all the things that you have been working towards and setting your intentions on can start to manifest during the two-week portal of the full moon in Gemini.

This particular time can feel life-changing, giving a burst of progressive energy needed to set the stage for positive growth in 2022. So take this time to create a reality where you feel valued, stable, and grounded. Use this full moon energy to speak your truth in order to move towards better opportunities for your future.

“Special Place”

I do weird things, I cope in weird ways and thankfully I’ve never been one of those people who need to be accepted or felt the need to follow the crowd. I like what I like and I do what makes me happy.

I do however, live in my head a lot. Which could be a positive or negative thing. Once upon a time, I use to write a lot. I do mean a lot to empty my thoughts. Poetry was my escape. My journals were full of poems. Some happy and cheerful. Most sad, dark and dreary. I don’t think I have an end of the spectrum that I stick to.

Tonight I couldn’t sleep. And tonight all I could hear is my Baby Love’s voice saying I just want to know what’s in that head of yours. Nobody really wants to know what is inside of this dome! It’s truly a bunch of bullshit scrolling across a marquee most of the time, a few “F” bombs and then that color block screen that use to be on the televisions back in the day at night when programming was done for the night. (These are all filters) The real shit is buried in the corners and it’s scary, dark and just damn right depressing. I don’t want to share that with anyone. Energy draining much?

Well tonight I wrote…surprised, I lifted the lid to this Macbook because I’m feeling really carpal tunnelish. I began doodling earlier during a meeting and decided to use that paper to write on…and when I start doodling, it is sort of hard to stop. It’s quite therapeutic for me. The poetry bug hit me. And since I rarely share any of it, tonight I’m being daring. 

"Special Place"

There's this thing I do
When I think of you
It's a game I play
Where I sit and close my eyes while reality fades away
I visit this "special place"
Far beyond the stars and space

I go to this place you see
Because no one exists there besides you and me
And in this "special place" everything is perfectly alright
Nothing but our love exists and we never seem to leave each other's sight
In this "special place" there is no sadness
No grief, no frustrations or irritations, no judges, none of that madness
There's no rules to follow and no laws to break
No people, bars or walls to hold us back or keep us separate

No time to wait until we can kiss or touch
And no more of just saying you "I love you" - instead we show how much 
A ping, ding or call signifies that my game must end
I have to open my eyes and allow reality to set in
But one day soon - and we both know when
I won't have to close my eyes and play the game ever again

-RDW

Next Level Christmas Caroling

The fact that they were positioned perfectly was enough for me lol.

I had to solicit help for staging today. I got to see first hand how the kids feel when they find Jaxon. It is pretty funny lol.

I guess I will keep up the tradition until they are a little older then he will get gray, grow and beard and die. I’m not going to make him pack and go away like most. He’s going to mimic real life. We’re even going to care for him in a enclosed case…it’s amazing how I’m already mapping out Jaxon’s end smh.