Tag: #living

Moon Shit: Full Moon in Aries

Between a super long and rocky Mercury Retrograde and the supercharged New Moon in Libra lies the Full Moon in Aries.

It’s just in Aries nature to have to be the first at everything lol. I present to you the first full moon of the Fall season.

If you didn’t know, your Moon sign in your astrological chart is based on the position of the moon at your exact time of birth and it represents your inner world.

My sun sign is Aries. But I am also lucky enough to have Aries as my Moon sign as well. Well what does that mean Moon Girl? This means that I was born under a New Moon, committed to making my mark on the world. (If you know me, you know me. It’s called Magic!)

Often referred to as the Hunter’s Moon, Blood Moon or Sanguine Moon; the Full Moon in Aries is the time to let go of your need to be in control. This full moon is about finding peace within ourselves even if we have to fight for it, as we enter what most describe as the most depressing time of the year.

Hold on to your seat…this full moon is not for the faint of heart, as us Aries are quite spicy! So expect intense emotions to surface. Let go of any resentment, frustration or anger during this full moon. It will allow you to clear what no longer serves you and prepare you for what’s to come during the New Moon.

Remember what you put out into the world is what you receive in return. So spread love, peace and happiness. 💛💛💛

FULL MOON SHIT Takeaways

Use this time and energy to step into your power and speak your truth.Try one or two…see how they work for you

1. Relax your mind: If your brain is fixated on things that are out of your control, distractions can be healthy and helpful. Try the app Insight Timer which will help you de-stress and meditate. Remember there is a big misconception that meditation is sitting in complete silence. Meditation is actually doing something that brings you peace and happiness. Take a walk or go for a run, play a game, read a book, paint, dance, listen to music, take a drive, clean etc.

2. Revolutionize your world: Even though life has its hardships, there is a reason that your soul has chosen its path. Connect to your spiritual side and find your sense of purpose.

3. Burn off stress: Find a healthy outlet for release instead of being angry and anxious. Steer clear of triggering people.

4. Ask and you shall receive: Don’t wait for things that you want to happen, make them happen. (Step into your power!) What’s the worst that could happen? The answer is either yes or no. No losses here. Don’t be led by fear…YOU ARE AMAZING & DESERVING!

5. Trust your intuition: Trust your gut. You know that uneasy feeling you get in your stomach. Or the unexplainable “not good” feeling that you get before doing something or going somewhere. This is your intuition trying to guide you in your decision making. Recall the intentions you set during the New Moon in Aries in April. Revisit them and see how they have manifested. If you need to adjust your goals and plans, do so. And use your intuition to lead you in the right direction.

Marvel Comics: Moon Girl

Resorting to Audiobooks

Dry Ass Audiobooks???

I’ve never really been into audio books. I’m weird and I like the feel an actual book in my hands. I like to smell the pages as I flip through the book. I enjoy the coziness of curling up on my bed with my favorite blanket, lounging in a chair or in the hammock just to pass the time while reading. Today, something changed. Probably the want to quiet all the thoughts running through my head while I worked or the tune out The Cat in the Hat that my son is watching all morning. Either way I needed something in my ears to distract my mind. What to listen/read I thought to myself???

Alternative retail therapy…

If you haven’t noticed, I’m not above attempting to correct an issue in my life that I recognize is a problem. And I love my children to death. The last thing I want is “bad parent” on my life resume.

How to Stop Losing Your Sh*t with Your Kids

I have been lashing out at my kids mostly because I hate their Father. This is not an excuse by any means and none of what’s going on is their fault. I recognized that I have to do better. So today I restarted my audiobook journey. I’m going to stop losing my shit with my kids…and maybe then they will listen.

Signed : A Frustrated but Determined Single Parent

New Moon Shit: Balance, Compromise and Harmony

New Moon in Libra: October 6, 2021

Yep, it’s that time again…New Moon Shit is upon us. Happy New Moon in Libra!!!

It’s time for a fall reset if you’re up for it. So be open to the wonderful world of possibilities. Now is the time to make plans for your future and focus on healthy communication with others.

Did you know this is the last New Moon where we have six planets (Pluto, Neptune, Uranus, Saturn, Jupiter and Mercury) in retrograde???

🤯🤯🤯

October is a pretty busy month and this New Moon is a definite reflection of such. There are many positive energies to work with and enjoy during this time. Try to use this New Moon energy to maintain harmony. Direct your energy into things that are positive, constructive and productive. Let’s not manifest negativity. There’s definitely enough of that in the world today!

Take some time to yourself to just reflect, practice gratitude and look back over the time period between October 2020 and April 2021. What has been removed and what have you have rebirth since this period of time? How have you transformed?

Spread peace, love and harmony…

Month 6

Every month it’s almost as if I forget that this day exists. That is until I completely wake up from the dream of March 26, 2021.

I should have remembered today because today is the due date for my state license renewal. I can hear you clearly saying “Don’t you fuck up what you got going on for me!” I open my eyes, just to make note of where I am…this day is usually just terribly painful. Tears start to roll down my face as I see your face on the throw on my resting chair across the room. It’s not a bad dream…it’s just my reality.

The day is September 26, 2021 and it’s been 6 months today…they say this gets easier huh??? It absolutely does not. Every month I’m alone on this day. And now it almost seems purposefully so.

In my head, I tell myself I need to be outside. I imagine the Sunday’s we spent on the deck with the music playing and you drinking your hot beer…eww…that’s not something I can indulge in as a memory but I think I can handle the rest. I want to be in the backyard today, with some drinks and music. Maybe plant some flowers and lay in the hammock.

I try to continue with my morning “routine” but it’s not working. I look for my phone because I don’t know what time it is. It’s dead. I guess, I fell asleep before putting it on the charger again. A “Good Morning Queen…” text warms my body a little. Neither of us appear to be having a really good morning. I hate this…

I get my fur son and head outside…maybe it will make me feel better. Joint between my fingers and lighter in my hand, I sit in my hammock and just exist for a moment. I really hate it here…I hate this part of life…the inevitable part that can’t be controlled…it hurts and there seems to be nothing to dull the pain. Who am I kidding??? I can’t do anything today…

I want some ink. I want to pierce something. I just need a little physical pain inflicted to relieve the emotional torture behind my fake smile and laughter. I sit on my bed and memories of when I use to write poems and put on a show in the living room for my Mom flood my mind. It was interesting being an only child for a while. We did weird things like this to past time and forget everything that was going on around us. I guess most would call that bonding. My Mom would play jazz quietly in the background. I’d use the floor lamp as my mic stand. I’d dress up and get in my element. She seldom encouraged my imaginative play so whenever she did, I made sure to make was a showstopper.

As an avid fan of poetry and music, a true nerd, I opted to end this blog post with a short short story. If you’re not familiar, read on…

It is said that the author Ernest Hemingway while out to lunch one day, bet a table full of fellow writers that he could write a short story in just 6 words. Although his fellow writers had their doubts, they each wagered $10 to put Hemingway to the test. As the story goes, Hemingway believed the resulting story to be his finest work ever. You can read it here.

In the footsteps of a legend, today I share my 6 word short short story…always and forever in my heart Mother…

“I am eternally your only daughter.”

— Your Daughter

Silence is Golden…Can I Take Your Order…Again?

I sit in this Mom & Pop Diner waiting for the waitress to take my order. Behind the counter is one cook, 2 waitresses and there is a waiter and waitress sitting at the end of the bar eating. I’m assuming their shift hasn’t began yet. People are coming and going to pick up food and place orders.

My son and I sit patiently. Waiting for the waitress who said just a moment 20 minutes ago to come back. She’s now at the counter taking the order of someone who walked in the door.

Normally I would have piped up and made it known that waiting this long is unacceptable for a paying patron. But what do I have to do today? I took the day off for court in hopes that I’d be having a celebration later. Nope. My overall mood is blah. And I’m guessing my aura is a grayish hue…

The gentleman next to me took a couple of phone calls. Just from looking at him I could tell he was a Vet. I take a good look at him and notice his Air Force hat. My son is quiet still and taps me to let me know he’s thirsty. I look up and all the waitresses are standing near each other chatting.

I motion for one of them to come to me. One lady looks at me in disgust. In my mind I say “Heffa…I know damn well you don’t have an attitude!” However what leaves my lips is totally different. I say “Ma’am we’ve been waiting for a while. I’ve had my order taken but I’d greatly appreciate it if I could get my drinks.” I’m asked twice what drinks I had. I calmly repeat my drinks. Finally my son is able to wet his whistle. I shake my head in disbelief and I just stare out the window.

I’m thinking. Not about how long I’ve waited for my food but just about this life. I’m trying to disassociate myself from court and that entire situation that is causing me to be in a blah mood. I want to scream and yell. I want to break shit. I want to shoot something. I just want to be destructive. On the inside I am so angry it is crazy.

The gentleman gets my attention and asks how long I’ve been waiting. I tell him I honestly lost track of time but I’ve been patient. He gets the attention of one of the waiters and asks about my order. Now I see that he either has ties to the restaurant or he’s an owner. One of the waitresses come to me to confirm my order.

You would not believe that they didn’t put in my order or it was lost. Either way my food had not been made. I put my head down.

I shouldn’t cry over food. I’m not wanting to cry about the food or the lack thereof. I’m just tired of life. I’m tired of not being heard, shadowed, and overlooked when I need to be visible. I’ve already been that loud, obnoxious, irritating, disrespectful, immature young woman. I made a change because I have a daughter. And how I once acted is not how I would like her to present herself in life.

They confirm my order was not entered. They ask for my order again. I close my eyes and I hold my hands under the table. I want to hit something or someone. I open my eyes and take a deep breath. I slowly tell the waitress my order. She apologizes and tells me it will be up shortly. The gentleman looks at me and says your food is free today. You will not pay after waiting this long and having to remind them. This is unacceptable. I know the owner and he is watching this place when he’s not here.

A gentleman to my right begins to tell me how the Air Force veteran is a great man and he has encountered him numerous times and still doesn’t know his name but knows he’s a genuinely good man and wonderful mentor. He spoke to me about conducting myself just as I did this morning in all facets of life. That there is a blessing in silence. We chatted for a little and then the waiter interrupted us with my food. He told me to enjoy and have a blessed day. I thanked him again, my son thanked him and we exited the restaurant.

After an interaction as such I would never return to an establishment. But I really liked this place before ownership changed. It may take a while but I will go back. In the meantime, I have to do something to lift my spirits…