We are only 3 days into this elf business this year and it seems kind of hard to keep up with Jaxon…either I fall asleep before I remember to put him out or I wake up and forget to situate him before I get the kids up. Either way I have to do better ASAP.
Seems like both Jaxon and I are on some other shit this year…now I just have to remember to take my good Ghirardelli chocolate morsels out of the bathroom and put them back in the kitchen after the kids finish eating breakfast. 🤦🏾♀️
And would you know…now I have to use the bathroom…to the other end of the house I go so I don’t disturb the scene before the kids discover him. Who will find Jaxon first today? 🤔
I dog sat the cutest puppy aside from my very own yesterday. I think this slightly filled my void of wanting a baby and/or another dog 🤣
Meet Shortbread…her name suits her perfectly!
We have given her the nickname SB for short because my mouth just doesn’t work right all the time. She and my big 4 year old “baby” lab Simba have gotten along great. I think he’s just happy to have a canine companion. Getting another dog is now definitely on the list. The baby…let’s put a pin in that one. 😬
I forgot how often you’re up with puppies when they are this small. But being a chronic insomniac it didn’t really put a bend in my sleep or rest schedule at all. I did however fall asleep before putting out Jaxon for the kids…
I woke up scrambling trying to think of something to do. I couldn’t leave my room because the kids were up and they’d see me with him. Smh. This is why I have to stay on schedule in December.
I had to think fast so I grabbed one of the dry erase markers from the top of my closet. I picked up one of the kids pictures on the nightstand and I drew on their faces. They will be floored to see Jaxon has drawn mustaches, beards and elf hats on their picture. I sat him between the plant and picture frame with the marker.
Aside from my children’s sperm donor appearing on my front porch unannounced, yelling and demanding I provide him with his mail, I’m awake and happy to situate Jaxon for the kids to see in the morning.
Just chilling after being released from my bra drawer 🤣🤣🤣
I have to find a little joy in Christmas for them and not ruin it by crying because I’m sad.
Spidey welcome back for my son
Today pushed me even more than before to locate a home to relocate to…I’m so tired of dealing with the bullshit and I’m not referring to playing with Jaxon…
Stay tuned for Jaxon’s shenanigans over the next few weeks…
There are no happy endings. Endings are the saddest part, so just give me a happy middle and a very happy start. -Shel Silverstein
It’s been 34 weeks, 243 days, 5840 hours, and 350400 minutes. My brother visited the cemetery today for the first time since the service. I wasn’t able to physically make it (because he got up super early and left me) but he FaceTime me and I was able to be with him indirectly and in spirit.
This is the first month that he’s been home around this time and it was helpful to have him to lean on as well as provide him with support too. Being away from home and trying to get through this has been really hard for him.
I tried to lift my spirits by decorating because Christmas (and birthdays) were our thing. We competed to see who would have the best decorated house. Not leaving a room undecorated for the holiday. Not sure what it is about Christmas but it made us feel happy.
This month has had its ups and downs. But i’ve tried to find the positive in everything. I don’t miss you any less. If anything I miss you more. Wishing that I was preparing a Thanksgiving plate for you to critique, falling asleep on your couch as you played with the kids before falling asleep yourself. You’re missed at all times and I hope you know it.
I’m still pushing forward because I can always hear you saying live your life because you only have this one. I miss you Mom and I hope even through the snot and tears that I am making you proud. It’s not easy and I know you hate for us to cry or get the least bit emotional over you, but you were truly my best friend. And life is a little hard to navigate without you. One day it will get easier but I definitely will never get to a place where I won’t think about you and cry. The next two months will be trying – Christmas and then your Birthday but I got this right? I know I probably don’t but I’m going to try.
In My Unapologetic Life... 