I created a whole new level in my friendships lol. There is friend, best friend and now very best friend. Let’s be clear, I don’t possess a lot of friends. And most of my friends are guys because, I have just never really been able to vibe with females. They are catty, always in secret competition with you and then just not trustworthy. I have three female friends. But when I really break down our relationship, I have one. The other two are actually relatives. My male friends…I have four. One is much older than me and he’s like my mentor. He’s helped me through a lot and I him. Three of them are close in age or went to school with me. And one of them I met when I relocated and we just have always kept in touch. All of them are a thorn in my side because they treat me like kid sister.
Well now I have a very best friend. This title is exclusive. This very best friend knows me inside and out. We share some of the most intimate moments together. We share dreams, goals, fears and wishes for the future. He’s my other half. This level of friendship is like no other friendship I’ve had before. One where I am free to be me (I am always me, sorry) but I don’t feel like I’ve offended anyone or have someone feel a way about something I’ve said or done. He’s the one who isn’t afraid to give it to me straight, tell me what’s on his mind and put me in my place when needed.
Very best friend…I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with him…you know until the end.
Previously written thoughts from my head as I lay in bed…
Distance is a number to calculate unconditional true and pure love…
I lay in the bed and I think about you
I love you so much that I don't know what to do
Wanting to feel you by my side
The pain that I feel in my chest moves up to my eyes
You're so far away but always so near
You are the only reason I still reside here.
Excited for the times when we can talk
Ecstatic for all the times we can hold hands, kiss, hug or just go for a walk
To feel you in real life...so close to me
The happiest woman in the world is what you make me.
Your eyes shine bright like the morning sun
You don't believe it but to me you shine brighter than anyone
A smile so sweet that it instantly makes me smile
It manages to quiet my mind for just a while
I patiently wait for the next time when my hand is in yours
To feel your touch and hear you say those three little beautiful words.
Even after all this time, there are still no words I can say to describe
How "see you later" makes my heart ache and my eyes cry
But when we talk my heart flutters and flies
You always manage to erase the tears I cry.
You are my stars and you are my moon
I believe that being with you forever will come very soon
When we are apart take this to heart
No one or nothing will ever keep us apart.
Between a super long and rocky Mercury Retrograde and the supercharged New Moon in Libra lies the Full Moon in Aries.
It’s just in Aries nature to have to be the first at everything lol. I present to you the first full moon of the Fall season.
If you didn’t know, your Moon sign in your astrological chart is based on the position of the moon at your exact time of birth and it represents your inner world.
My sun sign is Aries. But I am also lucky enough to have Aries as my Moon sign as well. Well what does that mean Moon Girl? This means that I was born under a New Moon, committed to making my mark on the world. (If you know me, you know me. It’s called Magic!)
Often referred to as the Hunter’s Moon, Blood Moon or Sanguine Moon; the Full Moon in Aries is the time to let go of your need to be in control. This full moon is about finding peace within ourselves even if we have to fight for it, as we enter what most describe as the most depressing time of the year.
Hold on to your seat…this full moon is not for the faint of heart, as us Aries are quite spicy! So expect intense emotions to surface. Let go of any resentment, frustration or anger during this full moon. It will allow you to clear what no longer serves you and prepare you for what’s to come during the New Moon.
Remember what you put out into the world is what you receive in return. So spread love, peace and happiness. 💛💛💛
FULL MOON SHIT Takeaways
Use this time and energy to step into your power and speak your truth.Try one or two…see how they work for you
1. Relax your mind: If your brain is fixated on things that are out of your control, distractions can be healthy and helpful. Try the app Insight Timer which will help you de-stress and meditate. Remember there is a big misconception that meditation is sitting in complete silence. Meditation is actually doing something that brings you peace and happiness. Take a walk or go for a run, play a game, read a book, paint, dance, listen to music, take a drive, clean etc.
2. Revolutionize your world: Even though life has its hardships, there is a reason that your soul has chosen its path. Connect to your spiritual side and find your sense of purpose.
3. Burn off stress: Find a healthy outlet for release instead of being angry and anxious. Steer clear of triggering people.
4. Ask and you shall receive: Don’t wait for things that you want to happen, make them happen. (Step into your power!) What’s the worst that could happen? The answer is either yes or no. No losses here. Don’t be led by fear…YOU ARE AMAZING & DESERVING!
5. Trust your intuition: Trust your gut. You know that uneasy feeling you get in your stomach. Or the unexplainable “not good” feeling that you get before doing something or going somewhere. This is your intuition trying to guide you in your decision making. Recall the intentions you set during the New Moon in Aries in April. Revisit them and see how they have manifested. If you need to adjust your goals and plans, do so. And use your intuition to lead you in the right direction.
People who are able to express themselves easily will never understand how liberating this feels. All it takes is 6 simple words sometimes. And as simple as that sounds it still doesn’t make expressing myself any easier. The topic was negativity…maybe tomorrow I can try being more positive. Giving myself some grace today…
I woke up sad and unhappy. I tried to smile but cried. I really hate it here today. I threw all their toys away. Praying the heartache and pain away. I painted my entire day away. All I hear; “Oh,it’s ok!” Sick of just hearing, “I understand”. The conversation is almost always abandoned. I’m so sick of feeling empty. Life is such a miserable place. Why live when we can die? Why love when we can hate? How much more can I lose? How much more can I take? I have no living parents here. I want to run far away. Where the trees and sky meet. I want water at my feet. I want sun on my face. It usually makes me feel okay. I just want to be happy. I just want some damn peace. Hell no I am not OK! Grief is such a muthafuckin beast.
