I wanted nothing more today than to lay in my bed with my covers pulled up to my ears and just be. I love my job but I just hate Monday’s. I mean we are just raped of a weekend and thrown into a workday in the blink of an eye. But it’s Monday, I have to work, kids have to eat and be cared for, dog has to be walked, fed and fussed at, trash has to go to the curb…I think I had it all covered. I’m working on being productive. So far it’s proving to be a struggle, but it’s ok. I’ll keep trying.
I have a really bad hankering for a salad…so do you know what my ass did??? Tell em what you did girl! I drove an hour and 18 minutes to a salad shop. I ordered the salad, ate most of it in the parking lot and then drove back home…
My life is full of these real haphazard ass trips and moments as of late…
I’m sure it has a lot to do with my newfound “quitting” spirit. I quit eating meat. I quit grief therapy. I quit people. I quit trying. I did make it throught the 12 weeks of reflection in grief counseling. But I’m beginning to think somehow the reset button was pressed. Gently placing me somewhere in between Self-Care and Compulsive & Addictive Behavior… Queue Deborah Cox, Nobody’s Suppose To Be Here. How did I get here???
I just want to lay in my bed, eat chips and shop on Amazon…sounds depressing I know but it is quite peaceful. Just me, the rustling of the bag, the crunch of the chips between my teeth and the tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk of my fingers on my laptop keyboard…
I am happy that the day is over. And on that note, I am going to fulfill part of my dream by dragging my body out of the bed and into the kitchen to get a bag of the chips of the quarter….
Would you rather see ten minutes into the future or travel ten years into the past?
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If I was asked this question in the past I know for a fact that I would have answered differently.
My answer today: Travel ten years into the past
Let me first explain that my option to travel 10 years in the past is not to make a life changing decision or to do something to change my future.
10 years ago I became…
I became part of the woman I am right now. Back then I couldn’t see it. But today I can definitely see it and I celebrate the hell out of this woman. She experienced a lot. She overcame a lot more.
As painful as it’s been, I wouldn’t trade it. Not even the saddest of the sad moments and situations. It all played a part in shaping me into the woman I am.
Believe me when I tell you that I haven’t always been real namastè, forgiving, understanding or caring. There was a point in my life where I was shootdadink…for those of you who aren’t familiar with the term, here’s a video for you.
I didn’t care about anyone but myself…
My answer 10 years ago: See ten minutes into the future
See…I hadn’t realized the joy of living in the moment and enjoying the little things like hearing, seeing, and feeling. I always wanted to know what to expect. I wanted to know what would happen in the future so that I would just know and so I could have some sense of controlling the outcome.
I grew into this person that I am and it damn sure wasn’t easy. I’ve had to go high when they went low. I’ve had to suck it up and roll with it. I’ve had to learn to forgive. I’ve had to endure some real hard shit. And it wasn’t until I lost my Mom that I learned that even when you know the outcome you’re still not prepared. You can’t simply “get” ready. You think you can…
So why not enjoy the little things now, instead of wishing you had later? If you know the future, that will be your focus. Your concern, your worry. What if you don’t see what you had hoped for? What if you saw something great but you self sabotage it?
Enjoy today…the moment. Sit. Listen to yourself breathe…and really think. It sounds amazing. It feels amazing…not everyone is able to do so…cherish it…
If you had to choose, what would you pick and why??? Travel ten years in the past or see ten minutes into the future…
This post contains sexual content. View at your own risk…
As a lover of all things intimacy and sex celebrate today!
I have been on the hunt for this toy and I finally got it!
I read all of the reviews. I tried to buy it when I was in Miami only to find out that it was sold out. It was sold out everywhere I looked online…one day I found it.
What better day to give this popular toy a proper review?
Before I do, I’d like to provide you with a few FACTS:
7 out of 10 women can climax as many as 20 times in a single session (Can you count while in the moment?)
You cannot think straight when you orgasm. (Ladies/Gentlemen do not answer any questions during this time…LOL)
Female orgasms can dull pain; this is in part becuase endorphins and oxytocin are released when you orgasms
Almost 60% of women ejaculate when they orgasm. (This is often referred to as squirting)
Women in same-sex relationships are more likely to orgasm than women who sleep with men (I cannot provide a comment on this)
So here goes…
Let me start by saying that I think it is well worth the money. I wasn’t even aware that it was a dual toy. It has possibly taken the place of my trusted wand…
There is no shame in my game that I have quite the collection. From bluetooth toys to straight up rope. If it’s sex, I got it. Once upon a time, I was going to be a certified sex therapist. I was so tired of people being uptight about the most amazing experience eveeeeeeeerr known to man. It’s how your kids get here. Shit it is how you got here…why are you afraid to explore? Your Mom probably had the meanest arch while getting her back blown out! (I am definitely about a bottle of Hennesy into this blog post and so into early self-care Sunday)
Well. If you don’t have one ladies…I suggest that you put this one on your wish list. It is a pretty amazing substitute for the obvious and gets the job done quite well.
Let’s first talk about the artificial tongue. It comes with a silicone ridged sleeve that makes the “licking” sensation more realistic. (Good job guys). Now it does not compare to that of a very experienced partner but it does the trick. There are 7 tongue motion patterns although I don’t think I made it past number 3 👀
Next up is the suction…this could use a little work in my opinion. This beauty comes with 2 pleasure attachments. One round and one oval. I’m assuming the suction attachments are to be used depending upon the size and shape of your “magic triangle”. I personally would like more customization here. This is a major part of the toy. Who makes these toys? They need a product tester like myself before they throw these things on the shelf or online. All in all the suction is hit or miss depending on what you like. I turned the suction off. It was just putting a bend in the experience. This would be my only negative to the toy…
There are about 7 vibration settings on the G-Spot stimulator. I was so focused on the suction and tongue that I missed this feature. The silicone handle has it own motor..and it is the G-spot stimulator…
The battery life so far is proving to be good. It comes with a magnetic USB charger. It is rechargeable and I’ve not yet been able to determine the true life of the battery. Not sure that I will get the chance…
I have no more energy. It’s late and I will have to review the G-Spot stimulator end later.
As of right now all I can say is “Goodnight“. If I could cook this bitch breakfast in the morning I would but it can’t eat so…
Pleasure yourself or someone else today. Give a little head or get a little head. It’s National Orgasm Day. I hope you enjoy it! I did 😁
When I woke this morning as usual I thanked those that had a hand in waking me up. I thanked them for all that I have and all that I’m to receive. This is normally how I start my day before I fall out of my bed. I don’t have to move, I just lay or sit in silence and give gratitude for the good things, the bad things, all things…because they all have a purpose.
Afterwards, I rolled over on my back and stared at the ceiling. The thought that came across my mind was, “I am just exisitng these days…what happened?” I have no true schedule, no routine. My life is like a Christmas snowglobe that someone curiously picked up off a shelf and shook the fuck out of. There’s shit everywhere (figuratively of course, because I’m a little OCD), everything is out of place, and there is no order. Chaos. Things are so shaken up that you can’t tell what use to be where.
I’m in the process of trying to sort it all out. I’m taking some time to myself. Not that this is out of the norm but right now I have to find me. Like really find me. Somewhere between December 2020 and April 2021, I lost the person I once knew. And I joke that I’ve sustained quite a few head injuries in the past year so my memory is not the greatest because of that. But I’m so serious.
Today after lots of reflection, I made the conscious decision to live and to find a way to do so everyday when I wake. Because when you just merely exist you tend to fade away, you miss out on the joy and peace that this lifetime has to offer. My intention is never to fade away but to live in the moment, spread love and genuinely be happy. (I promise I was a hippie in one of my past lives) I don’t think I can do any of those things by merely existing. And there are no memories in just existing.
After sitting with myself most of the day I answered myself… I don’t need a routine. I just need to live…
I have to stop trying to control every aspect of life with a schedule or a routine. And instead, go with the flow.
And then I asked myself how do i began…
Awakened by Jeanette Collins
Be kind, keep quiet and don’t look for the company of those who gossip or talk too much. Even if you’re feeling lonely. Better you stay alone.
In My Unapologetic Life... 